Just got back from movie session with my family, or rather the first movie session with my family. Yup, it’s the first time that the whole family is out for a movie, sounds kind of like a anti-social family. Anyway, 2012 ain’t really a good movie to catch for our very first time, watching the end of the world unfolding. With regards to the movie, it is as depressing as it can get, watching people die in every way possible, and in the end, less than 1% of the human population survive, and then add in your typical hollywood plot with the protagonist surviving the apocalypse with impossible stunts and kick ass graphics, an excuse to visit the cinema to worsen your hearing. It’s been a good day, to better appreciate my surroundings, my family, to enjoy. Life, this is probably what life should be, to do what I want with my freedom, with my very loved ones. Now is the break before next year, which is going to be a tough but nevertheless enjoyable! Life’s good now, so cherish it, with smiles =: D
` Tomorrow tomorrow!
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It’s been awhile since I have been back here. Time has passed, and fortunately this year has finally come to an end. A year of ups and downs, success and failures. Perhaps this has been the most hectic year in my life so far, with so many events unfolding one after another. Academically, I have done fairly well, and is now on route to the second year in college without any hiccups. Events that happened this year has been playing on repeat in my mind for the past few days, regardless of it’s significance. Yet again, the meaning of growing up has been reinforced, but also for the first time, happiness has been redefined. Now the time to play is finally here! To cherish your own life, and the people around you, should be the most important thing, so let me not forget that!
` A star..
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An emotion, an instinct, a trigger, a killer. The beads of perspiration that may form on your forehead, the chill up your spine, the uncontrollable shaking of your legs or the source of your tears, fear revolves around and enters our lives from time to time. So what is the primal form of fear? Probably fear itself? Sometimes life can be so monotonous that there is nothing to fear but fear itself, and the only thing to fear is fear knocking on your front door itself. Imagine the tremendous comfort of feeling no fear, and yet, we may owe our existence to fear itself. The fear of getting hurt that is already primarily responsible for keeping us alive. In some cases, fear itself can be a emotion that one can do surely do without, same goes for others like greed and desire. However, won’t one then transform into a non-living organism without it’s basic instinct, a robot, never fearing for it’s own life and probably won’t even know it’s terminated when it’s head is on the other side of the hall. If life was just a switchboard, where we can turn on the mechanisms of our body when we need it, like turn on the trait of focus and switch off the need to sleep during lessons. Unfortunately, this switchboard, no matter how advance will still never match up to our instincts. Yet, I already have so much to fear and fear itself, and my life may be this switchboard, where I could trade it away and hopefully go to a better place, with no fear.
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To deny, deprive and deject myself. Why not get shot instead, like an animal.
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Finally experienced some holidays, which is classified under the ability to just stone, do nothing, walk around the house like a zombie and most importantly, sleep till the cows come home. DAMN what a good feeling it is! Fantastic in fact! Though the more I sleep the more I do feel like sleeping. Well I am sure I can get over that with just more sleep =) Started on revision for my block test already. Another first in my life, where holidays are just spent to do nothing but slack my life away. It’s all about change! Yes, thank god the weather finally changed yesterday to develop into some sort of mild thunderstorm, black clouds are warmly welcomed after tolerating almost a month worth of blistering sun and heat. Anyway has anyone out there watched Gran Torino? Probably some already had n the cinemas, but for those who have not, do get it! Get a DVD or something, probably down$%^& it, thought I do not really support it. Clint Eastwood is AWESOME, and the show is great, kinda old school rustic film, with a gripping plot. It will be a shame to miss it! Thanks to my holidays, I managed to enjoy this film. Well no it’s probably time to hit back to the stack of notes, hopefully I can keep those eyelids open for long.
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How would you define robbery? A removal of an item in your possession with force? In that case, I can gladfully classify the extended curriculum into one week of my mid year vacation as an act of daylight robbery. Thing is, I guess it’s useless to report against the authorities to the authorities. Tired would be the perfect word to describe my current state of mind, probably everyone in college is feeling the same too. Oh tomorrow is Sunday again, a reminder of the imminent school days which are about to begin pretty soon again, damn.
`Everything is worth it.
Finally I managed to get my PI submitted today! Gotten the chance to breath just a slight sigh of relief, and not a big one as there is surely much more to come. It’s been a pretty long time since I put on a blazer or suit for a formal event (What’s the difference between a blazer and a suit?). I can say that it was a good experience, and for once, I probably felt good though it was insanely warm and uncomfortable.
Rejoice! Smile! It goes a long way just to do so. I have never noticed how meaningful it can be just to get a few messages a day from a person I care for, messages that I have taken grated for during the past. Today, just a message or two during the day, and it certainly makes my day a much better one. I find myself smiling more, feeling more alive. Yes, just that little bit more messages and effort a day =D
`Happiness I cant describe, but the feeling of it is back =D
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I just want to go catch a movie. Able to eat anything whenever and whatever I want. Entitled to have a conversation freely just as I would speak. Go for any event without much consideration. Hold my head up high. Scanning for faces with deep anxiety. Just to be as free as a free man would be. Yearning to be me, happy.
`with you, for you, I will do it, I must.
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A picture speaks a thousand words, and yet again, a good representation. No school for me tomorrow! Like seriously, the sigh of relieve that I managed to breath out is MASSIVE, GARGANTUAN and definitely GINORMOUS. Anything to do with extra huge pretty well describes it. Like a little kid getting his first bike tomorrow I am excited, maybe this sums up what having no life really means.
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Met up with my secondary school class mates yesterday and woah! How much fun I had missed out since I move on to College. The experience was great, just getting back to the old circle of friends and have a good chat around, probably noticing subtle differences from each of my previous classmates. Now we all procceed on to different routes, hopefully there will be more gatherings coming up!
Work work work, SCHOOL work! Tons of it! Time to crank up and flex those brain muscles!
`Happiness, a shared feeling. Beyond words can exlpain.
