end of chinese

Today was the national exam for my Chinese language, and as usual, Chinese is not highly regarded. Somehow today is rather different, walking into the exam hall knowing that this is probably the last exam I will ever take for this subject, I am incredibly relaxed and composed. After all, its’ a national exam, and walking in without a hint of anxiety can really get me anxious too. As for being so composed, I guess it helps in my performance too, being able to complete the paper with focus thought without determination, I can say this is probably one of the best Chinese scripts I have produced, other than for my promos which I managed to write a really meaningful essay from the bottom of my heart. Exam after exam, unfortunately its not the holidays yet. I have gotten myself into something known as a presentation, a presentation to be graded as another national exam, so there is surely no room for further relaxation. Trails that I have taken for this presentation have been just blundered through, and definitely dreaded the most. Luckily to say, this is the last leg to endure for this year, and then comes the holidays. It’s time to be positive, keep in shape, and complete this last leg, good luck to the rest working on this too.

`thank-you so much =:D

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4/8/09

Life has been a uphill curve, in terms of the amount of homework, the amount of time spent in school. Rants aside, it is this part of the year again, where fighter jets seems to pass by my house much more often and if I am lucky enough, I may get to see the sparkles in the sky. It’s National Day, not as if I am excited about it, but mostly looking forward to the early dismissal of college this Friday, somehow this really reflects the pathetic life that I have, when 1240 is considered as early and rather miraculous, even though I still have got lessons going on. I am tired.

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results?

So, it’s been a week since the reopening of school, and tomorrow school will reopen again unfortunately. Unexpected as it is, I am still not dead from the overwhelming disappointment that I am expected to get from my results, but not that I gotten good results, but it’s cause I haven’t gotten any. Seems like our scripts requires much analysis as if it were rocket science, and only Chinese, Math, and half a Geography paper is marked. Gotta say that I am pretty satisfied with the results so far, except for Math, which I hoped to be just a tad higher, but anyway, no point complaining. So now, maybe I can say that I understand college life a little better, after experiencing a not so major exam, which a major exam just following up in not more than two and a half months, now I do really understand. Really, I wonder how am I going to study Chemical equilibrium when I myself is hell out of equilibrium.

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disgust

Ever met a person whom you just develop a sort of distaste for that particular person immediately upon first sight? Well I am sure everybody has to a certain extent be it everyone you do actually meet. I always remember the first day of my college life when I happen to walk by this demonic, insanely horrific looking devil from the bottom of hell walk upon the very asphalt that I lay my feet on as well. At that every instance, being a human seems to be a grave association with that being or if I would assume so. How that thing still manages to carry itself with such a high ego completely mortifies me to a extent you will find my jaws flat on the ground. I am sure my college mates will understand this, but what I would say is, the course of my education has just turned for the worse. Maybe I could just remember, politeness is key.

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On the right track!

Finally I managed to get my PI submitted today! Gotten the chance to breath just a slight sigh of relief, and not a big one as there is surely much more to come. It’s been a pretty long time since I put on a blazer or suit for a formal event (What’s the difference between a blazer and a suit?). I can say that it was a good experience, and for once, I probably felt good though it was insanely warm and uncomfortable. 

Rejoice! Smile! It goes a long way just to do so. I have never noticed how meaningful it can be just to get a few messages a day from a person I care for, messages that I have taken grated for during the past. Today, just a message or two during the day, and it certainly makes my day a much better one. I find myself smiling more, feeling more alive. Yes, just that little bit more messages and effort a day =D 

`Happiness I cant describe, but the feeling of it is back =D 

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“Fun” Fair.

Last saturday was my college “fun” fair also also known as ‘celebrating values day’. Maybe they should name it ‘scamming people for school fund day’. Any name that is relevant to that name would do fine. It wasn’t much fun for me unfortunately. It was my first Band performance together with my college band. So when I said there wasn’t much fun, the concert was definitely not a good one as well. Hopefully I can do better in the next performance, and as it is SYF, probably I must do better then. The rest of the day was just like any usual fair, a noisy suffocative event stuffed into the middle of an oven. Glad that I managed to leave early, and since I managed to leave early with my beloved, I was surely more than glad =D Right now is the holidays, where half of it is spent in school to make up for the days lost in the compulsory camp organised by our very own college. Right, we are forced to go back to school when they have forced us to attend the camp in the first place. So it’s back to work and less chit chat. Band camp coming up, and I am tremendously sure it will be better than our orientation camp. What’s more, it’s only 10 bucks. 

 

` Always here for you.. =D

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feel the beat.

Maybe some kind of fairy in charge of education suddenly decided to bless me, cos for now, in an unbelievable 360 degree change, I am starting to get used to the rhythm of school (without hating it). Except suffering from week day blues of waking up at 6.15am, thing seem to be going well. Maybe it’s the satisfaction I get for completing assignments and doing them well. Hopefully I can keep this up, for the benefit of my studies. I got to say though, secondary school like is still very much missed, especially the fun and laughter in class. All I can enjoy now is the rapping of teachers, but I guess everyone will grow up and has to move on. The first term of school is ending, followed by the hell and fury of the next term with mega tons of assignments and truck loads of other academic and CCA work to catch up on. This, I am pretty sure of. For now, I already managed to get an appetiser of how Project Work will be like. One simple conclusion about it, if you get members who cant work well with you, it’s going to be a bitch, going one big round to bite you in your back. 

`Together we can go through this. I am always here, remember =) 

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lesson proper

Welcome to the world of the Junior College, where the timetable is filled with pretty much alot of breaks. Well, some days you will be slapped with two and a half hours of break and others with an hour of break given separately in half hour instalments. I realise that recieving education in my college is sort of like hunting down a treasure map, yes, something similar within that line, for every lesson is held at different locations. Same subject lessons in different days of the weeks are also held in different venues according to the college’s preference. Perhaps their preference are limited by the infinite variants of subject combinations. Applause for the staff who managed to put up the timetable, kind of seems like a well orchestrated show to me with students running around the campus without bumping into each other and listening to unrelated lectures to their subjects. Recieved my first assignment today which is Chemistry. Somehow I look forward to doing it, and even if I don’t, there are probably a whole lot worth of assingments to come stacked up to maybe as high as Everest, so why not look at the positive side?

 

`Addiction, I totally agree my beloved =D

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adapt.

I just had my first day of school proper, actually not really a full schooling proper, but just had some lectures around here and there. So we probably went here and there in search of our venues where lecture will commence. Not something familiar in secondary school, but I guess a change of venue all the time helps to keep me awake. At least I don’t have to stare at the same four walls probably five days a week anymore. Wearing my new school uniform tomorrow, does it have any meaning to it? It’s just like a second skin to put on for representation, my own skin which I walk in is likely to be somewhere else. Like the title, adapt, adapt, adapt.. 

 

`you are definitely helping alot =) 

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Orientation.

So now the first week in my new college is over, filled with fun, boring and plain stupid moments. Nevertheless, it is one of the best orientations that I have had. Made alot of new friends, and even seniors who were our leaders, and they do make great leaders, making my or rather our transition into college a smooth one. Though it was a tiring one as well, I think that it really helped in bonding the class together, especially a BBQ party yesterday which somehow revealed how some friends really do behave. Well, mainly insanely hyper jumping people among the crowd, but who cares? Yesterday is probably the only day to party like never before for the rest of the year, with lectures starting next week. Lessons! Time to work out some brain muscles and work doubly hard for the rest of the year. 

 

`Just so glad to see you =)

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